the rain

i dont know what happened between the time you shut me out and called your help
but i feel like theres something im not aware of
and between the time i thought you were going to be okay and my encounter with the military
i feel even more happened that i have no clue about
and during my encounter
they listened in at first
so i said some things that are meant to be kept private by accident
im sure of that
they said "were dealing with her"
and ten minutes later i was todl "were taking her to the hospital"
where i thought you were already on your way too
if you want to leave me
if thats why you were disconneteced when i last talked to you
dont hurt yourself anymore
but if im over reading things
like i always do
im here
always
but i guess the thing that matters is
im not there
i could tell you were mad before you called the teacher
mad at me
i thought you were asleep
and im sorry you heard it
if you dont know what i said
it was
"i hate life"
im osrry you heard that
you shouldnt take me seriously on that
its been kinda like, you can say
a catch phrase for me for a while
its more of a personal joke than anything
im sure it upset you though
and im sorry
you dont have to forgive me
i guess im done
ireally hope you dont read these things first thing you get back
i would feel absolutely terrible
im so lost right now
i did what you told me
i rented a movie
i got shes out of your leauge
because you told me too
im sorry
but i couldnt really enjoy
at least not now
im sorry for being stupid
and rambling around
thoughts enter my breain faster than i understand them
or if i mean them
dont leave me behind

been a while

thought i would just post for the hell of it
i love you babe
you still gotta pimp my blogspot k ;)
if we ever go to alberta
we should totally go here

just for you

Good night and sweet dreams snowflake
i miss you alot
you know that
im really looking forward to seeing you this spring
i know well have a great time
so for now i wish you the best on the holidays
honestly sara
thank you for being a part of my life

some random stuff to entertain

a couple of the things i do in class

welcome to the holidays

its time for christmas
almost done my shopping
rather go for myself
u wanted another you got it
that makes 3 today
feels kinda gay

christmas last year
wonder what itll be like this year

im this lame

this is really for kicks and shits
i could make an actual serious blog
or i can just fuck around on this for a bit
at least until i get bored
so yeah thats basically the just of it
if i actually seriously do this ill let u know
i know theres only about one person reading this so it just makes it funner to act like im talking to a bunch of people
godamn.... im bored
sorry snowflake
im a buzzkill some times

Alright what now

so ive made this thing
and i dont know y
probably the only time ill use it
but oh well
hello
its me
Brayden Adams
enjoy this while it lasts
have a fantastic day